Hair update... I'm going blond!






its almost where I want it to be.. however i'm taking a break and gonna process my dreads again for more of a lift.

here's some pics of my hair before the colour change when it was dark brown... in an updo and down:









My colour when I first created my hair extenders almost a year ago(after dreading my own hair)





skinny puppy...and holy am I excited!

yep,

august 7th, i will be on a big plane going across da big ocean to see'my' big band Skinny Puppy live...

in vienna August 8th, Prague August 9th, and the best for last Sziget festival budapest August 10th :P

i was fortunate enough to see them in toronto june 5th, montreal june 6th, then in NYC in times square on June 9th!









thats me talking to both Kevins! and holding K. Ogilvie's dog Bat-bat!

:)

a conversation between a co worker and the ol hag

i've omited my co-worker's name (and posted 'co-worker' instead of his name) cause he's threatening to sue...


co-worker:
why don't you just sit on FF's lap


co-worker is online.

co-worker:
blah
urgh
yuck

Tracy:
i thought you might want to first
:D
waiting for you to have that chance

co-worker:
100% he's done the cock on the popcorn at the theatre trick

Tracy:
you said cock :o

co-worker:
oddly w. relatives
cock cock cock

Tracy:
big fat cock head

co-worker:
what why how who when

Tracy:
so
how was the romper room last night?

co-worker:
it was okay - forrest went upstairs at 6:30p to have a bath then went to bed -

Tracy:
ah good

co-worker:
so we had an odd evening as another family was there to see them and jen/forrest were upstairs for most of the visit
so i only saw forrest for about 1 hour
and he was tired and cranky

Tracy:
see then
you should have brought him to the game
however you would have needed a spare
rubber mallot just in case
the reverse were to happen

Sent at 10:07 AM on Thursday

co-worker:
he was for some reason really desperate to take that tranny ticket

Tracy:
yep
desperato

co-worker:
fuckin weird

Tracy:
tranny
wnna be
he's a wannabe anything

co-worker:
i think he's seemed a bit too curious about it

Tracy:
that anyone else has got going on

Sent at 10:30 AM on Thursday
Tracy:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y2WpbTAWKGo
becareful
there are flying sperm in this video

Sent at 10:44 AM on Thursday
Tracy:
arg do you still have the link
utube for the sp promo april tour?

co-worker:
it's on the sptravel website

Tracy:
k

Sent at 11:03 AM on Thursday

co-worker:
YEAH - i just ordered the new Throbbing Gristle cd - arrives in april - limited edition


Sent at 11:59 AM on Thursday

co-worker:
At the request of Throbbing Gristle each of the initial CD pressing will include ONE of a series of FOUR different TG Totemic Gifts
in either copper, bone, rubber and wood.The gifts are built into the 'PART TWO' CD jewel case.
The Totemic Gifts were handmade under Peter Christopherson's personal supervison in Thailand.
Each of the Totemic Gift CDs comes in an edition of 1000.
wicked!
you'll love it


Sent at 12:04 PM on Thursday
Tracy:
oh wow
sounds cool

Sent at 12:16 PM on Thursday
Tracy:
what is the problem you are having sir
well
i'm not getting laid as much as i used to
i'm drinking too much

co-worker:
wft?

Tracy:
i hate winter
lol
never mind

co-worker:
what fuck the?
what the fuck

Tracy:
le fuckee fuckquois?
basically we need to know
that the request is coming from the owner
not an individual
because the organisation is full of shit
and you guys are fuckwits
:D
this person was trying to access
so the admin contact
authoritiy
documentation
with company
and if my aunt had nuts
she would be genesis porridge
it sounds kinda gray area
with porridge
and his boner
give it up
they dont have david silvians cd
they wont give it to you either
they called me and i told them to forget it
porridge

Sent at 1:19 PM on Thursday
Tracy:
bob marley
is busy smoking a big fatty
in the afterworld
he wont call you back

co-worker:
you clearly need to eat a mouthful of bent meat

Tracy:
mmmmmmmmmmmm
i like that
:D

Sent at 1:24 PM on Thursday
Tracy:
calm down there ramjet
my virigin ears
all this crudeness
is wearing its toll on my innocence soul

co-worker:
you are the least virgin of anyone here!

Tracy:
thank you
it means alot to hear this
from someone like yourself
:D
eh ?
eh?
cars
motorized wheel chairs bah!
i think people who commute need to have electric rollerblades
and on the highway everyone could just hang on
with a rope
lmao

co-worker:
are u drunk?

Tracy:
no
i wish
fuck
its cause i'm lacking
you 've never seen me sober

Sent at 1:30 PM on Thursday
Tracy:
you're a phucker
like baby phat
but phucker
LOL
bent meat my ass
lmao
i'm cracking myself up here
:O
yet again!
lol

co-worker:
you are odd
and silly
and evan doesn't understand you

Tracy:
lol
but you do~
hahahahah
hahahhah
that's the part that makes me chuckle

co-worker: co-worker
evan is easily squeamish

Tracy:
hehehe
i asked him the other day if his g/f missed him
and as he thought i slid in
she misses your cock !
and he was like :O
heheheehe
ehehehehe

co-worker:
oh jeez

Tracy:
i know
it was funny funny ha ha
it was funny cause of my delivery
i love saying that word

co-worker:
from the pictures i've seen this week from new orleans, i think she's getting plenty of cock

Tracy:
COCK
:o
nasty nasty

Guy:
yup

Tracy:
ah fun
your only young once
then you turn into co-worker
with two babies
LOL

Sent at 1:37 PM on Thursday
Tracy:
i am presently voiding duplicated invoices
our acurate and efficiate billing system
has done abou 400

co-worker:
excellent

Tracy:
i was hoping to do a deposit at the bank

co-worker:
top shelf fun - top shelf where grandma keeps the cookies!

Tracy:
that's fubar
now

co-worker:
deposit at the sperm bank - ted at it again?

Tracy:
bah
he shoots blanks

co-worker:
you don't have to tell the sperm bank teller

Tracy:
did you ever look at that video link i sent you
'the gossip?

co-worker:
do they have tellers?

Tracy:
no just rooms

co-worker:
do you fill out those deposit slips?

Tracy:
with alot of nuddy pics
bahabvhabhab

co-worker:
do they offer fluffers?
should merge Mustang Ranches and sperm banks

Tracy:
maybe

co-worker:
two birds, one stone

Tracy:
good idea !
btw

co-worker:
yet.........yet..........who wants the sperm of an elderly perv

Tracy:
i've created a blog that has only our daily posts on it
you know
how we converse
like this
but in a blog
copy pasted
:D

If you dare: Mythmaker

after shule on Saturday, I finally took the time to pick up and listen to the new Skinny Puppy CD, Mythmaker.




review # 1
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I admit, I had HUGE reservations about it, worried in fact (even putting it off), because I was worried it would sound too Ohgresque. Okay, for all you Ohgr fans, save it for later, this is about Skinny Puppy.
but I love being wrong here.... and I was in fact!


The first couple songs have me hazed reaching for the theatrical... words like 'work of art, crowning...' keep poppin into my head but at the same moment no.... wait that's not it..



oddly i was immediately connected to the dream I had, I even posted a blog about it last year in May, here is part of the dream i posted about:



"The music began and the sound was tremendous. Kevin Crompton had what must have been a master remote device allowing him to stand directly in the middle of the room yet allowing him to select the sounds of his choice with the different instruments variously placed all over this huge space. He looked like a conductor at the opera while Kevin Ogilvie meandered through the room while singing. "



Other thoughts on the Mythmaker experience:





Theatrical... (my subconscious wanting to see them live? who knows....so sue me!)



Connected...



Crowning...



The ability to find the commonality with the unusual and finding difference in the familiarity.



Flavoured with seasonings..



echo's of old resound with a sensual abrasiveness



never lacking, ever Ogre is there observing reflecting as he feels...as he goes.. as it unfolds...



track 9 vortex rewind back 20 years.. hello crompton.. mr. key!




in all, a wonderous experience that did not disappoint. its one that you keep listening to and keep finding reason to listen again before the end.



but like in life, everyone measures at/with different levels.



buy it and enjoy it,



I am.



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review #2



meat and potatos old school puppy.

that plain that simple.

yum

hair update

here's a pic after washing the hair last night....two weeks after I added the extenders and dreaded my own hair

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i'm overall happy with how they are progressing. I'm going to leave them alone for a while and see where they take me.

in other news... cute pug pics cause darn she's cute

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What do you do when

you can't share with the most loved and cherished person in your life?

share in something that you give all love and honour to? and what do you do when that person you love and commit to will never be able to share or understand that?

i never thought it would be this hard. I thought if i have enough friends to speak to about Hashem I would be fine but i've discovered that I was wrong.

The more I grow close to someone and want to share my life and love the more I realize how impossible that is.

How can this be? how did this happen? like a child i was well warned but thought I could deal with the relationship and go into that relationship with eyes open. mutual respect is easy... really.

i always hoped that he could share his love (or whatever it is) with me... cause I could never understand. wanting to know the details the reasoning ... the clouded mystery that I could never understand anyway. but my hand was stretched out there no matter how many times it was to be cut off.

he has everything, anything... filled with his needs, his space his things his life, not doing without.

and i go with nothing in order to fill his needs his space his thing his life... his gods.

until now.

Hashem has sounded the alarm, now i have to find the fire escape.. but where does/will it lead me?

I never knew how much sharing my love would mean to me and how important it would be to keep that One love alive.

meanwhile....

good news... the trip was a success and all involved had a wonderful time while visiting Negril.

here's some pics on the subject...


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monkeys are swinging from the tree:

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and in other news: working on new hair extensions, but this time I take a stab at real hair...
I may end up doing 'THE' dive once i finish these up.
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I suspect they will make for good extenders on real dreads.... hmmmmm

http://quinnster.fqdn.net/dreads/vibrata.html

more palmrolling is in order and i'm planning on dying the tops to match my roots, because of course i dye my grair hair, yes i'm that vain. :(